"Gou Dong" Feast

Big meal!
Yummy! Yummy!

Oakleys' X'mas Party

Run! Run! Run!

Run! .....
Run!......
Run!......

No matter how far i run,
in the end, i still have to face the truth!

No point running away anymore!
Face it! T_T

Lake Tekapo

Maruia Spring

The journey of growing up

I have never regret!
Taken this path,
I learn a lots, see a lots,
and I've been forced to grow up.

Most importantly, it has let me realize what is called LIFE.
The life that is totally different from what i have thought before.

Detoxification

Since when, so much of "rubbish", "toxic products" accumulate in my heart...
I guess, they have been there for quite sometime, a bit by bit accumulating...
When they are getting over the "threshold level", they have to be released out...
After detox for one whole night, i'm feeling much relax now...
Too bad, the side effect of detox have given me "walnut eyes"...

Fishing Day

Sunday (Partly cloudy; 5°C)
A good day to go fishing...
Mana tau, i waited there for 2 hours also no fish!!
No fish luck...
Luckily i did bring my camera along, so that i can
captured some nice scenery and of course my fishing pose "yang bergaya"..^o^

Sejuknya~~

Only when i'm away from the main city's city,
sharing a new room with my new mate, a girl from Hong Kong,
now i know, how cold Auckland is!
Is freezing! Especially in the morning and night....

Oh man, i'm not even in the south island....
Memang sejuknya!~~~

Really Hak Jai

I really wonder why my NZ working holiday gave me so much trouble...
Firstly, wrong D.O.B, then corrected.
But now, when i'm here, they told me my visa is just normal visitor visa!!

Here i come

Yahooo....
I'm off to the land of sheepss...... meh~~...
Cows....moo...

Finally!!

After days and days of waiting, waiting and waiting, at last they replied!
Finally, they gave me a solution to settle my D.O.B in my NZ e-visa.

Oh my, they are testing out my patience. T_T

I thought I could handle it..

I thought myself will get use to "how others LOOK at me".
But, I'm totally wrong!
I really cannot TAHAN!
I still feel very uncomfortable when others actually LOOK at me!

The incident was as below:
Lunch time,
after the food order, I chose one of the nice spot to sit down, which was facing the big TV.

Initially, I don't really notice it.
As time goes by, I found out something weird was happening.
The uncle (who was sitting opposite of my table) seems like looking towards myside.
At first, I really thought I am over-sensitive, but I am not!!
Cause even after my dad arrived and sat in front of me (which gave me a full blockage from the uncle and I did feel instant relief for a while), the uncle still continue!
How? He moved to the seat beside him, and continue "looking"!!!

Can you imagine that! For the whole lunch time, I have to eat in front of a super creepy uncle who was "observing" me as if I'm like an alien... And I have to pretend I didn't notice that!

Haih...actually I almost wanted to shout at him
"Hallo, 你睇够没啊？！" But I didn't....

I have decided!!

Sheep.... Sheep... Sheep... Sheep...
Sheep.... Sheep... Sheep... Sheep...
Sheep.... Sheep... Sheep... Sheep...
Sheep.... Sheep... Sheep... Sheep...

Then,
Rock... Rock... Rock... Rock...
Rock... Rock... Rock... Rock...
Rock... Rock... Rock... Rock...
Rock... Rock... Rock... Rock...

Muahahahaha......

Wondering

Why?
Without an aim of life, we will feel panic? Lifeless ?
Why is that so?

I wonder what's in my mind now?
What's the thing that i need the most now?

Explosion!

Keeping all those sweet and "sour @ bitter" memories for too long, and i think now its the time to explode! Muahahaha........

I've been crapping for the past 2 days, the same old stories been repeated many many times...
To my parents, to my friends, to my relatives, yet there are more to come...

But... Experiencing is much amazing as compare to all those crapping stories...
SO, YOU ALL SHOULD TRY!!

p/s:Crapping too much isn't a good sign... I should have stop by now...

I'm back in KL!!

Looking back, i've been away from home for almost 4 months!

The time that i enjoyed the most was the last stop, the Bangkok stop.
Many unexpected things or incidents happened, but definately all those
spontaneous arrangements were so amazing!

Trust me, i will be going back to Thailand again! ^0^

Aloneness

We are born alone, we live alone, and we die alone.

Aloneness is our very nature, but we are not aware of it.
Because we are not aware of it, we remain strangers to ourselves, and instead of seeing our aloneness as a tremendous beauty and bliss, silence and peace, at-easeness with existence, we misunderstand it as loneliness.

Loneliness is a misunderstood aloneness.
Once you misunderstand your aloneness as loneliness, the whole context changes.

Aloneness has a beauty and grandeur, a positivity;
loneliness is poor, negative, dark, dismal.

Everybody is running away from loneliness.
It is like a wound; it hurts.
To escape from it, the only way is to be in a crowd, to become part of a society, to have friends, to create a family, to have husbands and wives, to have children.
In this crowd, the basic effort is that you will be able to forget your loneliness.
But nobody has ever succeeded in forgetting it. -osho-

Wow hoo.....I'm getting really excited! Flowing back to the aloneness... :)

The eating trip in S'pore

Can you imagine, by 4 pm, i had taken FOUR MEALS! FOUR MEALS!
Oh my god! I should have taken all the pictures of the food today!

I already gain a 4kg weight after my expedition, I don't see any other body part i can put on weight somemore (except the boobs part lah..hahaha)!!

T_T I wonder how am I going to have my dinner later.... X_X

Don't judge a book just by its cover!

Even though I am petite, I am fit!
Even though I look naive, it doesn't mean that I will be easily cheated by people!
Even though I look like I am always need help, usually I really don't!

I can't help it, usually people will have too many wrong perceptions on me... (showing off..lol)
Too many people sayang or "sayang" me in this expedition. I'm loving it!!

p/s:In here, I really wanna say THANKS to those people that helped me in this 10 weeks expedition. MUACKSS!!! xxxxx

A mature love

Immature people falling in love destroy each other's freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.

A mature person does not fall in love, he or she rises in love. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. Now they cannot manage and they cannot stand. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don't have the backbone, the spine; they don't have the integrity to stand alone.

A mature person has the integrity to stand alone. And when a mature person gives love, he or she gives without any strings attached to it. When two mature persons are in love, one of the great paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone. They are together so much that they are almost one. Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. Only freedom and love.

---Osho

10 days post expedition travelling in Sabah ^0^

Haha...but I am also kind of paiseh, cause after 11 days, then only i wrote the post for the ENDEX of 09B expedition..Why?? Because the past 11 days, i have been busying around or travelling around in Sabah...I have been to Mount K again, Kundasang or New Zealand, Mamutik Island, Tip of Borneo! All these post expedition travelling were actually helping me to reduce my post expedition blues....

End of 09B Expedition

Uh hu.....Its finally come to an end... The end of 09B Borneo Expedition..

If I only can use one word to describe my expedition, the word will be --> indescribable!
(Cause I can't tell you much, you have to experience it by yourselves.) Haha...

All the ups & downs; sweet & bitter moments that happened during the expedition will be save in my "hard disk" forever!

I LOVE EXPEDITION!!!!!! MUACKZZZZ!!!!

Bye Bye....

Thanks for those that helped & supported me throughout my fund-raising...
I can say, without the help from you all, I won't be able to raise all my fund for this expedition!!
No matter the help or support is in mentally or financially, I really appreciated it.
I'm leaving....
I know i will miss you all.....T_T
& i think you all will miss me as well right? [Please say you do =) ]

I'll be back in early May 2009.

Last working day

Today is my last day in this company...
Suddenly I felt tons of feeling rush through my heart...
3 months not really a long period, yet not a short one,
really lots of tears and happiness happened here...
But one thing for sure, I am leaving it happily...=)

Honesty=Stupidity

Sometime, being too honest isn't a good thing...
When you really tell others your real situation, your real feeling,
I can guarantee...
most of the time, they wouldn't understand...
All they know is just to follow the "rules"!
The worst part is that they will make you feel like
"you are very STUPID"!!!!

Soulless day!

Analytical power=20%
Focusing power=30%
Listening power=40%
Communication power =50%
"Floating" power=60%
Day-dreaming=70%
Sleepiness=80%
Mind malfunction=90%
Soulless=99%

Oh man, i can feel myself getting older....only 1 day with 2 hours sleep, the soulless effect is so intense! And it last for so long...
Hopefully, besok I dapat cari balik i punya "roh"....

Appreciation

How much effort you put in, the return is directly proportional to it.lol..
That is what I get today, and I'm more than happy that I fund-raised that amount.lol
It's the time that I should rewarded myself with a good sleep.=p

OMG!! I was on air!!

Out of a blue moon, this morning I received a call from Hitz.fm.

Hitz.fm:"Are you mun mun?"
Me:"ya"
Hitz.fm: " I'm ??? (i can't remember his name=p), I'm calling from Hitz.fm"
Me: " Okay"
Hitz.fm: " One of your friend wana wish you all the best for your fund-raising"
Me: "Okay"
Hitz.fm: " Your friend's Tian Chad decicated a song to you--> Kanye West-stronger"
Me: " Huh, come again."
Hitz.fm: "Kanye West-stronger"
Me: "Okay"
Hitz.fm:"Did you listen to Hitz.fm?"
Me:" ya"
Hitz.fm:"Don't you wana say thank you?"
Me: "Okay, thank you. Actually I'm very blur now"
Hitz.fm:" You just wake up is it?"
Me:" No, I'm in the office. "
Hitz.fm: "Okay, bye"
Me:" Okay, thank you, bye bye"

Oh my God, the only word i know on that time was "okay"... My mind is totally malfunction=.=
According to one of my friend, marccus, who is so lucky, he was listen to hitz.fm on that exact time. He said both of us, sound blur blur semacam. lol

How can i forget it again?

Aih....
It is second time in this week.
It is so important to me, yet I still forget to bring it back.
What am I doing??!!
Really wonder how i drive my car back just now.lol..
Without it, everything looks super "clear", even "clearer" when it is at night!

Seriously, I think I need to get spare one.=p

朋友必备条件:

• 挡"子弹"

• 拾"烂摊"

• "上刀山, 下油锅"

• 最可怜的莫过于要出卖良心.

Is it my fault?

It isn't the first time i have been through this kind of situation.
Is me that created all these happened.
I felt scared, unsecured, yet I still need to face them.
I am not suppose to act & think in that way!
But I can't help, I can't stop myself to do all that.
All my reactions are so spontaneous, that's how i protect myself.

My style, my way.

Everyday,
smiling, chatting, crazy-ing around.
That's my style.
No matter who you are,
no matter how long i met you,
it makes no different.
That is the way I enjoy my life.

Ultimate challenge @ Skytrex

YEAH !! Mission complete!!
Date: 4th January, 2009
Starting time: 9:40:00 am
Ending time: 9:53:40 am
Duration: 13 minutes 40 sec
Status: Completed

Mission Completed!

Wow, I couldn't believe it!
I can finished it in 13 minutes 40 seconds!

None of a single second wasted...cause every second counts!
Keep going...keep going...keep going...
That's the only phrase in my mind!
All my friends cheer for me! Yelling! Screaming!
I really felt I'm so lucky to have all these people supporting me!

It's all over!
I need a good rest to recharge of my body, as well as for tissue repairing or recovering.=p

21 hours to go!

It's getting nearer to the challenge......
Nervousness start to accumulate deep down inside my heart.....
Bit by bit.....sooner or later, it will reach to the MAX!
Oh my, to do this challenge, I need a calm & cool mind!
"Mun Mun, STOP EMO-ING"!!

To all my friends,
Please pray hard for me!

It changed me!

I can feel it, there are something truly happening inside.
It started with tiny and mild changes.

Slowly, the effect getting stronger,
my thinking,
my emotion,
even my action changed!

My "impulsiveness disease" getting milder,
or more correctly, I am now slowly responding instead of reacting!:)

Present moment ;)

Live in the present moment!
Experience the present moment!
Enjoy the present moment!
Cause, moment come and pass!

Just follow your heart!
Live every single day as if it is the last!=p