Run! Run! Run!

Run! .....
Run!......
Run!......

No matter how far i run,
in the end, i still have to face the truth!

No point running away anymore!
Face it! T_T

The journey of growing up

I have never regret!
Taken this path,
I learn a lots, see a lots,
and I've been forced to grow up.

Most importantly, it has let me realize what is called LIFE.
The life that is totally different from what i have thought before.

Aloneness

We are born alone, we live alone, and we die alone.

Aloneness is our very nature, but we are not aware of it.
Because we are not aware of it, we remain strangers to ourselves, and instead of seeing our aloneness as a tremendous beauty and bliss, silence and peace, at-easeness with existence, we misunderstand it as loneliness.

Loneliness is a misunderstood aloneness.
Once you misunderstand your aloneness as loneliness, the whole context changes.

Aloneness has a beauty and grandeur, a positivity;
loneliness is poor, negative, dark, dismal.

Everybody is running away from loneliness.
It is like a wound; it hurts.
To escape from it, the only way is to be in a crowd, to become part of a society, to have friends, to create a family, to have husbands and wives, to have children.
In this crowd, the basic effort is that you will be able to forget your loneliness.
But nobody has ever succeeded in forgetting it. -osho-

Wow hoo.....I'm getting really excited! Flowing back to the aloneness... :)

A mature love

Immature people falling in love destroy each other's freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.

A mature person does not fall in love, he or she rises in love. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. Now they cannot manage and they cannot stand. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don't have the backbone, the spine; they don't have the integrity to stand alone.

A mature person has the integrity to stand alone. And when a mature person gives love, he or she gives without any strings attached to it. When two mature persons are in love, one of the great paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone. They are together so much that they are almost one. Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. Only freedom and love.

---Osho

Bye Bye....

Thanks for those that helped & supported me throughout my fund-raising...
I can say, without the help from you all, I won't be able to raise all my fund for this expedition!!
No matter the help or support is in mentally or financially, I really appreciated it.
I'm leaving....
I know i will miss you all.....T_T
& i think you all will miss me as well right? [Please say you do =) ]

I'll be back in early May 2009.

Honesty=Stupidity

Sometime, being too honest isn't a good thing...
When you really tell others your real situation, your real feeling,
I can guarantee...
most of the time, they wouldn't understand...
All they know is just to follow the "rules"!
The worst part is that they will make you feel like
"you are very STUPID"!!!!

Appreciation

How much effort you put in, the return is directly proportional to it.lol..
That is what I get today, and I'm more than happy that I fund-raised that amount.lol
It's the time that I should rewarded myself with a good sleep.=p

My style, my way.

Everyday,
smiling, chatting, crazy-ing around.
That's my style.
No matter who you are,
no matter how long i met you,
it makes no different.
That is the way I enjoy my life.

It changed me!

I can feel it, there are something truly happening inside.
It started with tiny and mild changes.

Slowly, the effect getting stronger,
my thinking,
my emotion,
even my action changed!

My "impulsiveness disease" getting milder,
or more correctly, I am now slowly responding instead of reacting!:)

Present moment ;)

Live in the present moment!
Experience the present moment!
Enjoy the present moment!
Cause, moment come and pass!

Just follow your heart!
Live every single day as if it is the last!=p

Every single moment is a gift!

Every single moment, I learn!
Every single moment, I enjoy!
Every single moment, I knew myself even better!

Awakening

When there is something that you really wanted so much,
where the craving is from deep down inside your heart,
what is the most extreme way you can express it to others?
It's what I been long for, I really don't have a clear answer for that,
I have been thinking nights for the answer, and I am still searching for that.

UNTIL,
I have a long chat with you, the answer is reviewed!
You really did a good sharing with me!
Even though what I can understand, it might not be exactly what you are trying to tell me.

BUT
You awaken me!
Maybe you are right.
When it comes to our passions, shouldn't be a single "cin cai" arise in it.
Only if we believe in what we are doing, then we have the convincing power.

The reasons that link us together

We have same dreams.....
We have same idea of life....
We know what we are craving for...

Our dreams & ideas link us together;
We do things together;
We support each other.

But do you know the ultimate reason that link us all?
We got NO GUTS.

If we trust ourselves, trust our guts, we are no longer staying in the same situation now.

How often..

You can guess what is in someone's mind?
You can feel how others' feel?
You can guess what others' want from you?

BUT
It is even harder if you want to know what you need!
Cause what you want, not necessary is what you need.

Smile ;)

For some reasons, I almost smile every single minute,
if possible, every single second.

So when do think you want to smile to either yourself or to others?
-when you feel happy?
-when you feel sad?
-when you feel lonely?
-when you feel scared?
-when you feel shy?
-when you feel bored?
-when you feel stressful?
-when you feel down?
-when you get excited?
-when you want to cover up your real/ true feeling?

Courage

Get out from comfort zone, you need a lot of courage...
BUT
When you feel there aren't much people stand by your side...
When you realize that there isn't much supportive friends you have...
And there are way too much of negative energy or discouragement surrounding you...
It will make things even harder...
To move on some energy boots are needed...

laugh = happy?

Is there any direct or indirect relationship between smile @ laugh = happy @ enjoy?
Why do people conclude that laugh=happy or smile=enjoy? Is there any proof for that?
Even though I smile all day long, it doesn't really mean I enjoy my boring & dull work.

Laughter reminds me, there is still HOPE in our life....=p

How?

When someone bully me, how should I react?
When someone ask me to switch to other job function, how i should answer?
When I can't finish my daily job task, how should I increase my speed?

I'm trap, man!!

Why?

Why I will feel like
~ I don't want to talk?
~ I don't want to sleep?
~ I don't want to eat?
~ I don't want to work?

All I want to do is just sitting there, but doing nothing!
Let my mind to fly to wherever it want to be!

What is going wrong? Can you tell me why?

要还是不要?

我总是觉得人真的好奇怪哦,
当得到某些东西的时候, 我们却不想要;
当失去的时候, 我们却想要.
到底我们是要还是不要?
烦!烦!烦!